i did not take my own advice!
who ever does really? i dusted this thing off because i was starting to get that feeling im sure you're familiar with, that you're wasting your precious time on this earth.
i stand by everything on my home page, even now, but the scariest thing is that you can know that you're not spending your time doing what you really want to.. and you just can't stop being stuck in the cycle of NOT doing it.
backrooms is one of my favourite movies of the year because it got that point across to me in a way that got under my skin. im stunned by an inability to break cycles that only harm me.
i think im quite a vulnerable person. i struggle with a lot of really severe mental illness, and i think that compromises my ability to do a lot of things effectively. the best comparison i can make is that i feel like agni from fire punch most of the time. my mind is always on fire. it can get pretty difficult to tell what parts are just mental illness and what parts are my soul burning in defiance to the life im currently living. either way, i am always on fire.
despite that though, i did still write something didn't i? that has to count for something.